To start with: Please blame Ejay (madam, Avocado and Nuts) and not Lotanna, for not posting in 4 months, I don't know whats wrong with that girl. Her inconsistency won't let me be great. This is Lotanna; Gori's wife, please read the following post as a continuation of the last post, once again, I apologise on behalf of Ejay for the super duper late post.
Recap: Meeting Gori Part III wish I could sit here and type to you that I am happily married. I wish I could write the same things I wrote two posts ago about how I love the way he smells and all that hollywood dreamy type of love. I am miserable and there is nothing I can do about it. Gori is not only unable to satisfy me sexually, he has a violent side, and I have reason to believe that he is actually not into girls. So in all of this I am just a paycheck that doubles as a pawn for keeping up appearance.
After the smack on the back of my palm. Needless to say, I was very upset and so I went to my fathers house. Gori must have realised I was displeased because he sent bunch of messages and was waiting for me when I returned home. He said he would have come to my house but he didn't want to create a scene or have anyone thinking we were already on rocky ground. I asked him why he hit me and he said 'babe I didn't hit you' It was a smack, it was reflex and I sincerely apologise. We got past that but tension went up by about 5%. A few weeks after, Goris mum became really ill and had to be flown to India for treatment (She eventually passed away, but we'd get to that). Without question, we postponed and later suspended the wedding. Yes, my white wedding had been moved to the list of things that had a TBD (to be discussed) stamp.
We had a small court wedding with barely anyone in attendance. Mummy and Aunty Chinelo were greatly displeased but there was no room for insensitivity so everyone played along. Then, Goris' mum passed, it was such a devastating period for him I tried to be as loving and caring as I could. But Gori seemed to prefer the company of Silas and I understood that, I mean, they are related and basically grew up together, so they shared a bond I couldn't understand, plus it was a difficult time.
There was no talk of white wedding, like we weren't even going to mention it. We had agreed that we'd wait for the funeral and remembrance before we have the wedding. Mummy and Aunty Chinelo were clearly unhappy about it, they said and i quote "Nne, it's not done, white wedding 2 years after traditional, ahn!! How many people will we explain to?". The man just lost his mother, I wasn't going to jeopardise my peace by insisting on a loud wedding or a wedding at all. Honestly, I was okay with the traditional and court weddings.
Gori spent more time at the office, I used to wait for him but then he begged me not to that he didn't want to burden me with that and so i stopped. One night, I couldn't sleep and so I occupied myself with youtube videos, I heard the gate open and looked through my window, Gori drove in, parked his car and went straight to the back of the house. It's 1am, certainly Silas is asleep, I lay down anticipating his arrival, 30 mins, One hour an hour and a half; No Gori. I got up, threw on my robe and headed downstairs, I switched on the light in the stairwell, then the one in the hall way, then the one in the living room still no Gori. Then I went to the kitchen. It was when I was about to switch on the lights in the kitchen that I saw Gori coming out of Silas's room, Silas came out with him wearing nothing but a scarf around his waistline. He planted a big, long, wet kiss on my husbands lips, rubbed his back as if to console him and then went back inside.
Silas's room is part of the guest house which is really just my glorified "boys quarters"
I watched this film trick from my kitchen and I was certain that it was a dream, i almost pinched myself.... none of them noticed me. The kitchen lights were still off, I quickly went up to my room trying not to make any sounds but I had forgotten to put off the lights that I put on.
Gori came up and said 'babe, this one you left all the lights on'. I didn't even have mouth to respond.
I just lay in shock on my bed.
